Wednesday, June 30, 2010



Do you Appreciate the person you are, or the people you truly love.

Their interests their quirks their likes and dislikes ?

Today I started to think about my life and the people who have made an impact upon my life. The more I think the more I realize how each on of them is so unique and special in there own way almost like a snow flake where there is similarities but none are exactly a like. I try to embrace there abnormalities ( and I mean that in a good way ) because that's what makes them who they are, defects and imperfections included.

But then I began to think do the people that say they love me
Appreciate me ?

Appreciate me for my ways and my character or are they just hanging on for the ride because its the right thing to do.
The feeling I feel when I feel accepted an appreciated is un measurable. The way a friend accepts you for you are with out a change. The way a husband and wife enjoy the experiences brought from the character of one another. The acceptance and admiration from a child's eyes as they gaze upon his parents.

That what I want, that feeling because it brings me peace and trust in my heart

I don't ask for much
Just to be appreciated for the man that I am imperfections , interests and all my experiences.

I also think that we don't appreciate the small moments that make our life memorable
And make life worth living

It's not the items you collect, nor the fiances you can acquire not the years you accumulate in your life, It's the memories you cherish and the memories you leave for the ones you love
Appreciate the time the air the life you have and the people you have in it because in a blink of an eye it can all be gone.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Why Is forgiveness so hard ?

The Oxford English Dictionary defines forgiveness as "to grant pardon for or remission of 
an offense," debtabsolve. To cease to feel resentment against: 
to forgive one's enemies.

Forgiveness may be considered simply in terms of the person who forgives including forgiving themselves, in terms of the person forgiven and or in terms of the relationship between the forgiver and the person forgiven. 
Most world religions include teachings on the nature of forgiveness, and many of these teachings provide an underlying basis for many varying modern day traditions and practices of forgiveness. Some religious doctrines or philosophies place greater emphasis on the need for humans to find some sort of divine forgiveness for their own shortcomings, others place greater emphasis on the need for humans to practice forgiveness of one another.


Forgiveness involves recognizing that the person who harmed us is more than just the person who harmed us. He or she is in fact, whether we want to acknowledge it or not, is a human being whose full dimension isn't defined by their foolish decision to harm or wrong us. At its core I believe forgiveness is an acknowledgment that a person who's harmed us still has the capacity for good.

Forgiveness means swallowing your pride and moving forward for a greater good.

How does forgiving others benefit us?

In order to forgive we must let go of our anger.
If we continue to hold onto anger, it often leaks out against others who've committed no crime against us, as well as colors all our experiences, often ruining our ability to feel joy in many aspects of life.

now how does this affect or apply to my life.

From what I see its easy to preach forgiveness, but to implement it in your life is a completely different thing, many people can sell the idea but they are not buying it themselves.
With my son on the way I can truly say the best way to teach forgiveness to my son is in my actions, not in my speech nor my religious beliefs.
All of these things mean nothing yes I said mean nothing if not applied in daily life.

The most righteous man is as wretched as a sinner if he can't teach in his actions and not his empty words.


How far would you go ?

I mean really it's easy to say but how much would you really do for love, life, family, faith and your beliefs.

Would you give your life for another that you loved?

Would you stand for the weak and defenceless with no promise of praise?

Would you be willing to humble your self in the face of pride ?

Would you do anything for you child?

Well it is my opinion Action speaks louder than words.
You can profess love all you want, but when it comes to proving it, some people fall short at the idea of going the extra mile or making sacrifices for the happiness of the people they love.
Love and sacrifices made by ordinary people make them extraordinary.

I would not think twice about dying for my child if the situation called for it.
Dying for your loved one has been epitomized as the ultimate act of love.
I believe, however, that living for the one you love is also just as meaningful.
Living for that person means you’re willing to make sacrifices for the sake of your loved one’s personal growth.

When I profess love to someone, I mean it in every sense of the word.
I love without question or without asking for anything in return.
I would go to the ends of the earth for my them not because they asked but because
it is what i feel is right.

How far would i go boundless, limitless. I would do anything without the slightest hesitation for the ones I love the most. I would do everything to make them happy.
My son and family is my priority.
Spending as much time with them as possible is my priority.

I would make the world stand still when it comes to the ones I love.

So really ask yourself 



Tuesday, June 1, 2010


So yesterday I stumble upon a movie at target that i have not seen in a while but remember it to be an amazing film
"hey its on sale for $10 so why not"
This movie is called "Apocalypto" it is a remarkable film. Set in the days of the Mayan civilization,
The cast is largely indigenous non pro actors speaking the prevailing surviving dialect of the Mesoamericans,
"Yes i had to look that up " The move has a lot of subtitles but after the first 10 min you hardly notice.

So why am I blogging about this movie, I am no film critic nor is this movie even remotely new.
For those of you who have not seen this movie, it is very realistic and a bit bloody and Gorey
because it it very true to the time period an lifestyle that the Maya lived.

Now I really did not remember the movie to be as realistic as it was ( I guess the whole of the movie impressed me so much
that I did not focus on the blood and guts)

But anyway I watched the first 35 min or so of this film before
I went to bed and I was just as intrigued as I was the first time I saw this film, but something was different this time.
It's like when you look at an old photo you have seen hundreds of times later in your life and you start to see the background cars and people and at how much things have change and yet you never really noticed till now, type of feeling.

The main character is a young man named Jaguar paw, and he has a pregnant wife and son and lives in a small village that his father is the chief of. ( just giving you the basics don't want to ruin the film for you )

The father and son have a moment where the father tells his son Jaguar paw
"Fear. Deep rotting fear, Fear is a sickness. It will crawl into the soul of anyone who engages it. It has tainted your peace already. I did not raise you to see you live with fear. Strike it from your heart. Do not bring it into our village."

I thought that is so true fear is a sickness and it must be treated.

I continue to watch further and the young man after having this conversation with his father, performs a unselfish brave act to save his family.

He as a father would do anything even if it was to loose his life to save his family and that rung bells in my head and heart that it nearly brought me to tears.

Even in thier non educational tribe socity and the simple lifestyle, there is an unspoken weight of responsibility that fathers have and that i feel I'm developing, of protecting your family at any cost.

WOW 30 mins in and tearing up, this has never happened to me before. ( what the heck is going on ,its just a movie that i have seen before)

And that's when it hit me like a brick it wasn't the movie that change it was the person watching that has changed.
Me, I ,blue has changed and by a lil boy who hasn't even been born yet, is the reason why.

How can a lil person who is only about 2 and half pounds completely dominate the mind , body, heart and soul of a 235 pound man....

But with all these changes in my thoughts and actions I must say that , I'm proud that I am changing no better yet evolving for my son even if i did not realize it.


so in closing, I recommend this movie 2 thumbs up


Have you ever noticed that when opportunity arises, it’s never in “our time”? Rather, it comes at sometimes the most “inopportune” times – meaning that we’re often not prepared to receive it and use it to our full advantage.

Many times, we plant seeds of intention…unintentionally. What I mean by that is sometimes we start thinking about what we want; except when we do, we have planted a seed of intention. Intention turns to action, and action results in an equal reaction. The same holds true for ill thoughts. there are some people who bring negative results into their lives because they plant unhealthy seeds in their minds. If you can think it, it can happen. The whole point of the matter is that whatever you think, you become. So if your true intention and desire is to land the job of your dreams, you will subconsciously begin acting on that thought’s behalf. The same holds true for pessimism and procrastination. If you think that you “can’t” perform a certain job, or “I’ll never own a house,” or “I can’t get that promotion,” etc. — then guess what? You won’t.

Opportunity always comes fast and furious but we have to be ready to receive it. When we plant the seed of intention – for whatever that may be – we must realize that it will come. It may not magically appear overnight, but when opportunity does come knocking at life’s door, you’ve got to be mentally and intuitively prepared by opening your mind to the potential and blessings that are ready to come into your life.
What are you thinking at this moment? are you’re ready to acquire prosperity, wealth, and happiness.
You can’t afford to not be prepared for opportunity. You know that whatever it is that your heart desires that you can attain it. But it begins with a seed of intention, and that intention requires action on your part. How far are you willing to go to land the job you’ve always wanted?

How deep are you willing to dive to find that buried treasure? How long are you going to keep stopping yourself from achieving success? It really boils down to you. You are a walking billboard indicative of your life. What you project is just as important as what you take into your mind’s eye. When your perception of life is in tune with your focus of intention, you begin to rapidly increase your chances at opportunity. Go ahead – plant your seed for opportunities today.